So here's my story. I'm 24, finished school, live with my parents and am looking for work. When I was 16-17 I smoked pot about 20 times over a one-year period. I quit because it wasn't seen as socially acceptable and felt guilty to be doing it when my parents didn't want me to.
Fast forward to about 8 months ago. I smoked pot recreationally and have been on and off the drug ever since. At its most I would do about a half gram every two days. Last time I smoked was about 3 weeks ago when I smoked some of the hash tar in my pipe. The time before that was two days earlier when I did the same thing. Before that I had gone for about a month and a half without using marijuana. I have had OCD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder since age 10 and may now have some depression as well.
I haven't given up the idea that I won't use pot again. Life is so ****ing boring without having a job. I like the thought of smoking half a bowl and enjoying the buzz. All this even though I usually get into a very sad mood when I am buzzed, it worsens my OCD, and I do absolutely nothing because of the laziness. I know that if I buy some weed and smoke, I'll probably want to do it again and again, even though my psychiatrist told me I am at an increased risk for developing anxiety and depression because I already have a history of mental illness. I also don't want to get schizophrenia.
I'd prefer to quit now rather than later when I've screwed up my brain and lungs and am really hooked on it. I just wish there was more to do during the day. The decision to give up weed forever really sucks.