My Detox and Rehabilitation: Diary of an ex Stoner.

[Pixiescam]

First I guess I'll start simply, like they suggest you do in the place I'm currently at. My name is Cam and I am a pot addict. I'm not really sure how it got to this point but it's been a long time coming... I've needed help for a long time but always tried to do it alone. That's not to say one can't do it alone.. But I personally haven't got anywhere without addressing the fact that I am addicted, and That it's ok to get help.

So, my use. For the last 3 or 4 years it gradually got worse and worse, I'm 32 and I had been smoking Every day since I was 21, and gradually building up to that daily ritual from about 19, so about 13 years of abuse. I smoked about an ounce a week, sometimes more sometimes less depending on if I had a job at the time (and I haven't even able to maintain one longer than a year).



I've recently entered a detox clinic here in Melbourne, with the aim of completing rehab straight after this initial 10 days, and this is my 3rd day here.. Second day without weed (obviously got high before being admitted.. Dunno why but I guess to say goodbye to lady Jane). I'm feeling really positive, it's hard I'm having all those withdrawal symptoms that ordinarily would have me reaching for a cone or 5, but I can recognize that the triggers are things I can control and if I keep busy like.. Typing here for instance, or writing my thoughts, then the cravings pass and I do feel more positive moment by moment.

I'm really just writing this here on this forum as an outlet and I would love to hear of your similar experiences or anyone going through the same thing as me, I'd love to talk so if you wish to send me a private message don't hesitate and for anyone else with advice I greatly appreciate that I'm not the first, and certainly won't be the last.

[noot]

Hi Cam,
I just joined this forum and have been working on my own detox for the last 3 days as well (since Tuesday). It feels like forever. I like the idea of using the forum as a distraction from the cravings. The few times I have tried to quit, it never lasted more than a week. I am 36 and have smoked almost every day since I was in my 20's. My usage definitely escalated over time - the last few years it was morning-night.

Good luck to you! I'd also love to talk to the people who are beginning this process - maybe we can motivate one another to stick with it. You mentioned you are in a detox clinic right now - that's great! I am trying to do this on my own - I have told my husband and a few friends that I am stopping but no one really knows the extent of my problem so they don't realize what a big deal this is to me. But it helps not to feel alone.