
Originally Posted by
ridextreme
I am on day 35... and I am back to panic/anxiety attacks???
My story in brief for anyone interested is I have been smoking for about 10 years, I took a two year break from 2006 to 2009 and smoked non stop (Very high quality weed) for the past 3+ years straight. At the end of Dec. I came home really tired, and for some reason decided not to smoke that night, just went to bed. well I woke up in the middle of the night with a major panic attack. I was convinced my body was not getting any oxygen and I went to the ER. you know the stroy, I left with a script for Xanax. I smoked the next day, then took another break and it happened again. long stroy short I thought it was just "bad weed" so I stopped until I can get a different one. Well that's when I read up on these symptoms. I really suffered so bad that I wanted to die so bad. It hurt so much. my last day smoking was 12/29/2011.
The first 10 days were the worst days of my life - forcing food down, walking around pacing with panic/anxiety, going to numerous doctors, spending thousands on lab results, etc. I took a few xanax but at first they didn't help (which was probably good for me) but during the next couple weeks, they started to help but I was so affraid I would go thru this all over again from xanax addiction.
After 10 days, it started to get better. I read up that it usually takes about 10 days so I thought it was over. My 3rd week, it came back again, although not as bad. Then it got a little better. I just went a week without that xanax (i only took like 12 of them total in the past month at 0.5mg).
So here I am - last night, i had two different nightmares. I don' tknow if they were nightmares, one of them I was like in charge of a lot of money, and left the safe open, and someone stole it. so in my dream, I was feeling the anxiety!!!! then I had a different dream right after it, where I was laying in my bed and people (who I work with lol) noticed I stopped breathing. I woke up with another panic attack. omg its 35 days what is happening???? Yeah I had trouble sleeping but I found melatonin works for me, keeps me in a light sleep, only waking up a few times a night.
This has realy scared me, now I am affraid to go to bed. I get the worst panic while I am laying down that I have to get up. it got really bad last night. I commute to nyc for work and I kept myself up, got on the bus for work and I started to feel another one coming on. I have my xanax on me and I was ready to take one, but I thought let me get to work see how I fee.
here I am at work lol its getting a little better, so I will take one tonite if i need it. If anyone can please tell me or help me man I will really really greatly appreciate it. I am so scared to go home tonite and go to bed because of another nightmare (if that is what i had?) that turns into panic attacks. i would not wish this on my worst enemy.