I am in my late twenties and have been smoking weed for around 12 years, and daily for around 6 years until earlier this year. It had such a negative impact upon my life and it was causing me all sorts of financial problems, but still I couldn't quit.
Earlier this year I moved abroad for a job and of course had to stop smoking. I was surprised at how easy it was and how quickly my sleeping returned to normal, it seemed so good to be true (especially after the hell I had experienced in previous quitting attempts). I would still get cravings but these were manageable. I was coming up to the 4 month mark but I was offered some in a park by a stranger and smoked a couple of spliffs. I now feel so guilty and stupid for it, I can't believe I now have to wipe away all of those 4 months of quitting for this...I feel so angry and stupid with myself. I was so proud of how well I had done and looking at the time that had gone by since I smoked. Now I feel depressed, and as I said, angry with myself and that I have let myself down.
I don't know why I am writing this, maybe it is to try and help myself but can I still count those 4 months since I last smoked, or are they written off? I couldn't sleep well at all last night and I hope it isn't the effects of the cannabis coming back. I was sleeping like a baby (naturally) for the first time in years over the last few months. I feel so angry with myself.