About to quit marijuana, so I'm venting

[Abstract]

So I'm sitting on my last gram.

I am 24 and a complete looser. I have nothing to wake up to, nothing to look forward too, nothing to do, no body to talk too.

Marijuana has ****ed my life up, it makes me ok with doing nothing. I've lost
freinds and trust by a lot of people. I've lost my athletic ablitys, with that went my good looks. I lost love........damn I lost my love



After loosing my love I lost my mind. All because I abused marijuana. So in the next few days I'm quitting....done...for good....

But I only want to quit when I'm stoned.....When I'm not getting high, I can't imagine quitting. ****!!!!

Anyway....I'm stoned now and can't wait to quit, I feel as if life will be so much better and everything will change.....But!.....I also think if I quit, and nothing gets better how much worse my mental state could be.

The only reason I haven't gone completely insane already is because of marijuana; but ive abused it and became addicted and it took over my life. Now I'm at that age where I can't do anything without getting drug tested. I believe in marijuana abilitys for the sick and hemp as a "green" alternative. But in the wrong hands it can ruin people's life, like mine.
I believe that if I quit marijuna everything will change and get better...
but....
I am scared of the future....I am about to begin my life...if it doesn't work out, I'm ****ed.



Thanks for reading....please leave some comments/suggestions

[Argonil]

My brother is in your shoes. Know this. Your life WILL get better once you stop, for sure! You will slowly start to feel an increase in motivation, which is the most important part in my opinion. Everything slowly returns after quitting.

Give it a month, maybe two, after you've quit, then you should start your life, as you will have recovered by then. Start working out already, it increases your recovery rate and motivation in addition to the normal benefits.
Remember, once life starts again, it may be tough, but it's just a matter of getting back into the routine. If you're gonna go under education, remember that some things take time to learn and require hard work, math for an example. Do not give up!

After I quit, I also started to feel more intelligent, to perform better in video games and daily life. You might be bored in the start, and may not be able to think about anything but weed, but stay strong and use that willpower of yours! You obviously shouldn't buy any more weed, and if you have any leftover weed, flush it. Find something that takes time which you can do to keep you entertained, such as starting to watch a new movie series, a new video game, book, you name it. It will help you.

Best of luck!

[Unregistered]

Look at it this way man, your motivated to quit when your high because when your high your in a happier state. Your seeing everything in a more positive light including yourself and your future and your potential for real true happiness.

When your come back down to earth it's hard because yor out of happy chemicals it's hard to bring back that same feeling. Just know that with proper diet and a healthy lifestyle your brain will bounce back and soon you'll be able to find that motivation on your own. Imagine feeling that way all the time, like when your brain was fresh and not abused, like back when we were kids.

Good luck man