So I'm sitting on my last gram.
I am 24 and a complete looser. I have nothing to wake up to, nothing to look forward too, nothing to do, no body to talk too.
Marijuana has ****ed my life up, it makes me ok with doing nothing. I've lost
freinds and trust by a lot of people. I've lost my athletic ablitys, with that went my good looks. I lost love........damn I lost my love
After loosing my love I lost my mind. All because I abused marijuana. So in the next few days I'm quitting....done...for good....
But I only want to quit when I'm stoned.....When I'm not getting high, I can't imagine quitting. ****!!!!
Anyway....I'm stoned now and can't wait to quit, I feel as if life will be so much better and everything will change.....But!.....I also think if I quit, and nothing gets better how much worse my mental state could be.
The only reason I haven't gone completely insane already is because of marijuana; but ive abused it and became addicted and it took over my life. Now I'm at that age where I can't do anything without getting drug tested. I believe in marijuana abilitys for the sick and hemp as a "green" alternative. But in the wrong hands it can ruin people's life, like mine.
I believe that if I quit marijuna everything will change and get better...
I am scared of the future....I am about to begin my life...if it doesn't work out, I'm ****ed.
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