My family is falling apart and I need help to quit weed please!!

[Unregistered]

Hi. I've been reading through some of the posts here and it's great to know I'm not alone and I'm hoping that maybe someone might help me the way others here have been helped...

I'm 24 and mother of 2 children, a daughter 4 and a son 11months old. My partner whom I was engaged to has now moved back in with his mum and we are trying to get our relationship back on track. I had an extremely difficult pregnancy with my son and suffered severe morning sickness as well as having many many complications. The fact that my son is alive is a complete miracle. That was hard enough on our relationship but it also has caused severe Post Natal Depression in me.

I've been a stoner for 9 years now and it is causing severe problems in me. My partner also smokes too but for pain relief from his jaw which was shattered by a car load of people that bashed him in the middle of a car park a few years ago. For this reason he doesn't recognise he has a problem and only uses it for pain. Today we had yet another fight as he was leaving for work and he told me that now instead of being angry with him all the time all I've done is re-direct my anger onto my kids. I feel like the worst mother ever. I am not normally an angry person but the more I smoke the worse I get. I know it's a problem and I know that I need to stop and I've resolved to today even though I've been telling myself I should for months. I don't wanna lose my family and I hate being angry with my kids when they do not deserve it as they are angels and I love them more then anything. I feel like I'm crazy and out of control and I have no idea how I'm possibly going to have enough control/willpower to be strong and give it up for good. Please help....TIA

[whateverdude]

Okay, let's see. You have a hard pregnancy - it puts a strain on your relationship, and then you get post-partum depression, which is another strain on your well-being and your relationship. I'm not sure what your status is as of now, but have you considered seeing a doctor? A doc could prescribe you something safe like an SSRI for your depression symptoms, and after getting that, I think you should go on to couples counseling or family counseling. If it's a financial thing, how bout taking the money you use to buy weed and giving it to say a good, trustworthy friend or a family member, and have them hold it for you so you can use that money to get legitimate help.

I think you're self-treating your symptoms with weed, and the whole guilt thing is making you even more depressed. Just get some professional help. You'll be fine.

[whateverdude]

I think you're using weed to cope with your familial problems, that's why I recommend seeking out professional help and learning new coping skills. Your weak willpower is really your mind not being able to deal.