mother of 3 in need of some help

[Unregistered]

Hi, I've been smoking pot for a little over a yr now. Just after my youngest was born. During my pregnancy me and my husband split up during which he started smoking pot (I.had previously never "let" him). I was so desperate to have my family back together that I went against everything I believed in and tried pot for the first time at 20. So, I guess I liked it because I started smoking more and me and my husband were getting along great. Then everytime the kids would start to get to me I would go to the barn and take a hit and be completely cool and controlled to take care of the kids. Now I was also in nursing school and all my kids are under 4 so you could say I'm under a ton of stress.

I've just graduated from nursing school and would like to get a job. The drug test is not what I'm worried about, its that I know I can't be the competent nurse I want to be when my brain is fried.

So the problem is that I'm having horrible withdrawal symptoms, you know can't sleep, bad dreams ( this morning I woke up from a dream of a bull chasing me down the halls of a school trying to breed me, wtf?), I'm jittery, I'm shaky, I feel like a crackhead, and I can't control my temper which is off the hook (not good when I have toddlers because all I do is scream which is not beneficial to any of us. On top of that I try to quit when my husband is out of town all week but he comes home and tells me I'm being a ***** and need to smoke.

I really can't go on like this. I've took up exercise, which has helped a little but only short term, if I'm constantly exercising I'm not taking care of my kids. Alcohol did help but I'm scared I'll become an alcoholic (there's a strong family history of that).

Is there anything else that my be beneficial, my kids really don't deserve to have me fly off the handle and the fact that I can't be the person I used to be is depressing me major---maybe that's a symptom too? Please help me get thru this!

[robinl555]

HI Guest,
Keep up the great work, there is light at the end of the tunnel!
Chat with other people like you on intherooms.com

[BFB]

Hi and welcome,

What you are going through is completely normal, or it is for many people unfortunately and they say pot isn’t addictive but anyway. I think many of us start using a drug like pot not just to get high or a buzz but sometimes just to cope with life for one reason or another. Unfortunately it’s just something you have to go through really and there is no magic cure other than time, obviously if you start substituting it with drugs like alcohol then there is a chance you will start to become dependent on that, but like you say you know that already.

Take care and please keep us posted,

All the best,

[ridextreme]

Hi,

I have recovered from this, I am a few days short of 6 months and I am feeling great. However the withdrawal for me was really bad. I was pretty much unfunctionable for the first 10 days or so.

if you have quit and want relief from the withdrawal symptoms, here is what will help you - inositol is a water soluble natural nutrient that used to be classified as Vitamin B8. This thing has helped me a lot, the only thing that helped me more was xanax but I can understand if you want to stay away from narcotics. I would suggest to buy the powder form and take up to one teaspoon (3 to 4g) up to 4x a day. it will calm your mind down and also take away the anxiety. Sometimes it will take it all away and other times it will make it a lot less tolerable.

I don't know where you live but if you live in the united states you can purchase the powder at The Vitamine Shoppe and you can order it from puritans pride (also less expensive).

I am sure this will help you

[robinl555]

Dear Guest,
I believe all of these changes are temporary. I had the same anger issue a year ago when I quit. It will get better.
If you feel hostile, take a 5 minute break to pray for tolerance, patience and kindness. It doesn't matter if you believe in god. They have proven with MRIs, that the brain and body benefit from praying.

[BFB]

You could even try meditation if you are any good at it, but I know not everyone is.

All the best,