Hi Guys, thanks for this site, its great. Just wanted to say I am a 20 year daily smoker who decided to quit for health reasons (the smoking is killing my lungs!).
I am at week 3 and today was the worst, most depressed I have been for a very very long time maybe in years. I think I am generally prone to depression (with or without weed withdrawal) but the weed always helped, it removed me from my depression, made me relax and not see the world in such a dark way.
I was really hoping at week 3 that I would gain a new vigor for life and become motivated and inspired by the world, but that just isn't happening, I am in every way more agitated, annoyed and unhappy - everyday I am reminded why I smoke, I am starting to think at this point that I should just light up, because I know I can alievate this depression in one hit.
>So I have started drinking wine - and I don't drink at all, never have, always been a smoker - I am just drinking to get out of my head a little bit, to be honest its not working its just making me feel shitty.
I guess I/we all need to understand that the WEED IS NOT THE PROBLEM - the problem lies within us, our need to escape and occupy that dreamlike state weed provides is more about how we relate to the world around us than anything else. Same with any addict really, the alcohol isn't bad in itself but in the hands of an alcoholic its destructive, but its the compulsions and needs of the addict not the drug that are to blame.
I have always been an outsider, never been one to follow the masses, trends, most people in this world are sheep or zombies, programmed to act how society, law, the government requires, we are force fed false information about the world, particularly here in America, we are dumbed down, poisoned (in our food and water) and lied to.
so hey f*** it why not smoke? I am struggling to think of reasons not to at the minute.
sorry for the rant - this is whats going on in my head right now.