I don't know why but I feel compelled to write this in the hope that it may help at least one person who is addicted to cannabis. I don't think anyone will read the whole thing though. If you're like me when I was a weed smoker you'll have already lost concentration and are probably rolling up, eating or masturbating.
I used to be a massive stoner. I got wrecked pretty much every day for about 5 years. Not just wrecked. Absoluetly wasted -everyday, every morning, every night. You know, like a complete wreck head. Except I didn't realise it. I told myself ganj was a part of my personality, a way of life and harmless. At first it was a solution to some small problems. It helped me relax and forget about things. At the end of my love affair with cannabis I was a wreck with the problems caused by it.
My biggest regret is how much of a huge waste of time it was. 5 years! 5 years I can't remember and 5 years I'll never get back. I lost my friends, my job, my girlfriend and my motivation. I only socialised with a small group of friends who were stoners. I ignored family members including my mum and dad. But worst of all, I went from being a happy, funny, confident, smart person to being a paranoid, depressed, boring, socially anxious idiot.
I began to not enjoy the way it made me feel. I wanted to quit but found it really hard. My only friends were smoking it by the bucket load, I couldn't sleep without it and I got bored. Really bored.
In the end I couldn't get a bag for a couple of days and decided to see if I could go a week without getting high. After a week I felt class - I started getting my wits about me and really liked it. After 2 weeks I felt even better. Now its been two years. My life has changed in so many ways and I am a completely different person. It is honestly the best thing I have ever done, ever!
I thought I'd share some things I found useful when quitting.
Firstly, don't give a shit what you're other friends think when you pass up on a spliff - they don't care cause it means they don't have to share their stash and they will be a hell of a lot more paranoid than you after you pass it up. It didn't take long for my friends to see my life turning in a positive direction and mainly just the change in my behaviour and now they have all stopped as well and i can see the difference in them.
I read your brain repairs itself which really inspired me too. Like if you cut your arm the wound would heal - so does your brain. The more you smoke the deeper the wound and the longer it'll take to heal. But it will heal. So the quicker you give up the better. You'll notice this the longer your not smoking. For me I think it probably took just over a year to really feel the way I felt before a began smoking it.
I also think it's important to replace an addiction with something. For me I replaced weed with alcohol for a while. I wasn't a big drinker and didn't particularly enjoy being drunk on my own so it wouldn't lead to alcoholism. I found it helped me get to sleep and relax. After a couple of weeks I didn't need a drink in the evening. I guess you could replace weed with something a bit healthier but I doubt you'll find the motivation in the beginning to exercise. I smoked tabs too cause I was obviously addicted to tobacco and everytime my friends had a spliff I would smoke a tab.
Another thing is the reason your bored when you don't smoke weed is because your addicted to weed. As soon as you get it out your head you won't be smoking weed again then you'll start looking for things to do. Even if its just going to the pub or seeing your family or friends you'll feel a lot more fulfilled and satisfied with your evening than just smoking yourself into a hazy bubble.
And finally, take the first step. Just try it. Stop today. Don't think "i'll just finish that bag i bought and then after then I'll stop". Just throw it away. It'll be the best twenty quid you ever spent. Trust me.
That's pretty much it. I really hope it inspires someone to stop smoking weed. At the end of the day it doesn't really matter what I say I guess you've just got to want to change your life for the better.



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