Hi everyone. I have been tampering off weed bit by bit over the last two weeks until I finished the last of my last (!) stash. It is over now since yesterday night, and today is the first day of absolutely not smoking weed. I have been a heavy cannabis user for the last 18 years and I simply just don't find any fun in smoking weed anymore. All these years I've been building a tower of reasons to stay high on weed, mostly related to all the good medical properties that marijuana has, but I have to admit that other than the occasional back pain I am a very healthy guy, so I guess my only disease that kept me smoking was my addiction issues, and the only way to end that particular disease is quitting pot altogether. To me, just to admit that I have an addiction to weed is a big step, since most of the arguments around this drug surface around it's alleged non-addictive properties. Hell man, I am living proof that weed smoking is a highly addictive thing to do. You first start smoking with college buddies, for kicks and laughs, and over the years you find yourself more and more isolated, searching for the company of the weed itself, making the drug your best mate and companion for every single moment where u are supposed to have a minute for yourself... suddenly you find that you are high all the time, and that other than smoking weed, there is very little sense to life. If this is not addiction, I dunno what addiction is. So, first you admit to yourself you have a problem, then you picture your life for the next five years, as an exercise. If this life picture is happy and successful, you find there is no place for weed anymore. Then you find this forum and read post after post until you are convinced. I know I am. I'm done with it. I've smoked all the weed I possibly could and now the path that follows in my life needs to be sober and clean from thoughts to emotions to every single act in life. I am battling with some urges to smoke right now as I write this, because today is a national holiday in Mexico and I am at home, with hours of leisure ahead before resuming the labor week tomorrow. This idle times were the ones I looked after the most to smoke, so before I tried to go out and score (I deleted the phones of my dealers from my cel phone but I am sure that if I tried hard enough I would be able to get some more weed and get wasted again) I came back to the forum and started writing. I just don't want to smoke weed anymore, I've quit cigarettes two years ago, and the stupid me had a relapse for the last four months since I needed a legal excuse to be smelling like smoke, (see how absurd this conduct is, man, I really need help!) so now I find myself with a huge motivation to quit (cannabis and tobacco, altogether!) some boredom and a lack of endorphins that is making me very anxious.
BTW a friend of mine recommended acupuncture and I will be trying it for the next two hours. I hope this helps. Any ideas, comfort words, or such, are surely welcome...
I want to quit and I need support.
Thanks for this forum, and the opportunity it provides to share... Time to go for acupuncture, I will keep u posted!