I am a foreigner so sorry for my bad english.
I am 20 years old and this is my story:
Since about eight months i started smoking weed frequently. It lasted about six months. I smoked for four months about two/three joints per week, and the next two months about four five a week. My first question is: can this amount of marijuana cause permanent brain disfunction? Marijuana was not laced or anything, on several occasions it was skunk.
After i smoked my last joint about two months ago, i woke up feeling, well, bad. It can be described as severe brain fog, detachment from mental procesess, from outward reality, bad concentration, bad short term memory, unable to think clearly, not having a sense of time, sense of my personality, insomnia... Absolute transformation from a happy, witty, college student with great grades which was considered smart by his environment to a walking zombie, that continuosly googles his condition, feeling dumb, feeling numb, feeling suicidal.
From my thorough analysis of my condition and informations available online i could be experiencing this:
Depersonalization derealization caused by anxiety, triggered by mary jane - well symptoms may fit, but i don't feel anxious or anything like that, just plain stupid, foggy,
Brain damage caused by marijuana: - well some say there is no damage from marijuana, some say there is. Well i am wondering if it could be this bad, since i wasn't daily smoker for long time, if what i described before wasn't chronic and heavy use
withdrawal symptoms- well i don't feel the urge to smoke it ever again, so doubt that too.
Anyways, some help please. I wonder if it goes away, of course, and if it does when. What might help me? And please DON'T answer if you haven't been there, or you don't know anything about it. I really need some help people.