Hi all, second day without a blunt here. (minor withdrawal symptoms:sweating, low energy level, no appetite)
After much reading on personal stories about their weed addiction, I've finally built enough courage to quit this extremely unhealthy lifestyle.
Like many people, I started smoking in high school socially and casually, soon enough it turned into a full-blown everyday habbit.
I've smoked everyday from age 16 and now i'm 22 this year.
I think we all fell into the slippery road when we went from social smoking to smoking alone. When I first started, at a party, I thought it was
the best thing ever. I continued to smoke socially, until.... I started buying my own stash to keep at home. At first, I started vaporizing at
night, every night and it was just the greatest thing to end the day.
Soon enough, I was not satisfied smoking crappy low grade chronic. I became a weed snob, buying only the best tasting and the strongest kush(I'm from California).
Through all of this time, the thought of the negative side effects never even hit me once. I was so into that lifestyle I never even thought about quitting.
I was actually brainwashed by pro-marijuana garbage that it was not harming my body or mental health. I would always defend smoking weed vehemontly, thinking to
myself, there are far more unhealthy things to do than getting high, not harming anybody. But now I realized how ridiculous thinking like that is.
Sure, there are other unhealthy habbits, but that is because people abuse and overdo it. At this point, I was foolish enough that, I didn't even know I, myself had been abusing a substance.
I don't blame marijuana, only myself for abusing it. Deciding to quit almost feels like I have moved on to another stage in life.
Sadly, I have friends who still smoke and probably do not realize their addiction. Like many current users, I used to think weed was not harmful or addictive, and
that it was OKAY to smoke everyday.
I think what finally made me mad at myself was, realizing that I was so dependent on weed that doing anything without weed felt dreadful.
Realization of my addiction didn't make me quit though. I continued to smoke, and felt extremely terrible when I ran out and could not find a dealer.
I kept telling myself I would quit, only to light up again the very next day, and everytime I did I would tell myself, "my god how pathetic have I become?"
I would laugh at myself being so weak that a plant has taken a hold of me.
But to finally realize I had an addiction to pot was the first step to quitting.
I kept debating in my head,(addicted me vs me without maryjane)
why should I quit, it's not even that damaging, and it makes me happy. But the truth is.. like many of us, getting high is no longer fun when we abuse it for years.
For periods of time, all I would get from blazing was a bad headache, this would happen for a week or two, but continued to smoke.
Not sure exactly what struck me to finally decide to quit, I can't even remember due to my stoner memory. After reading all the stories here, I've realized,
its better to quit sooner than later.
I hope reading my story will help those who are currently still in the stage of deciding whether to quit or not and why should they, to finally take the plunge and quit.
There are so many reasons to quit. One most importantly being, is kicking an addiction.
An addiction is a terrible thing and it grips people in ways they can't even help themselves to get out.
I want to list all the issues that came with abusing over the years:
-sometimes i would slur, but not too badly
-my lungs, throat, teeth obviously suffered
-I no longer even dream at night, very very rarely
-sometimes I lose my train of thought, and it causes me extreme anxiety because I couldn't remember what I wanted to say(I wasn't even a nervous and anxious person before)
-I cough out nasty tar every morning and that can't be good..
-Smoking to feel normal can't be good neither..
I sincerely want to thank all those who shared their story here to help people, funny how we all banded together in the first place by pot, and now banded together by quitting pot.