I feel like im living in cannabis hell

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Basically im a 19 year old guy and i first started smoking skunk when i was about 14 with my sisters and mum and we didnt think it were a big deal... when i turned 16 i was still smoking small amounts of a night (1 spliff shared with sisters) but i also got a job and to be honest it was soo stressfull and the hours were long and i wouldnt get home till about 9pm and then all i wanted to do with my money was get stoned n i had alot of money a week (£300) and from the age of 16 ive been smoking cannabis very heavily for 3 years... at first it was wicked i was getting soo stoned on a £10 a night and forgetting my problems when all the weed was doing was covering them up... and then when i realised i was fully addicted i also realised i could smoke up to £30 a night weighing at 4.8g... sumik like tht... and i werent even getting stoned( tell a lie - i did for the 5-10 mins i was smoking the joint... but then the second I put the joint out i would feel normal... i used to feel soo normal.. i even used to drive after a joint because i knew it didnt do nufink to me (i got pulled by police after smoking a spliff and they didnt even know... they let me off for speeding at 45 n tht was it... but all weed really does to you is give you a temporary buzz until it wears off leaving you paranoid like crap.. n the next day in the morning all i think about is how to get my next bag... i used to take the shittest deals just so i would know i had a spliff for bed otherwise i would just lay there all night staring at the ceiling... right now im craving soooo badly for a spliff but buy going on the laptop and reading other people's storys makes you realise what it has done to you... well all i can say is everyone keep up the good work :P lol Mat x

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i know what you mean, aside from all the negative health things like paranoia... i was spending all my money on it and as you said, would rather accept a shit deal than risk going without

im a few weeks into quitting (i smoked everyday for 9-10 years) and im doing alright, its not easy and the addiction does pop in my head and tells me i want a spliff but i don't its just the addiction saying that!

basically i would spend bout £20 per night just so i didnt feel bored (and so i could sleep), but i realise that for £20 a night i can go out for dinner every night or go to the cinema or a concert every night and then not be bored either!

and the sleep thing does get better, although ive been having crazy dreams since i quit!

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Hi and welcome to the forum.

I so hear you, I think most of us can identify, especially about the tolerance, you definitely get to the point where it no longer gives you the buzz it once did, this is pretty much the case for most drugs and cannabis is no different, in fact using any drug often shares many of the same negative consequences as using others, sure some are worse than others, but it’s amazing how many similarities they all have in one way or another. I also know what me mean about the paranoia, I got so bad I would not even answer my door, anyway well done on your decision to quit I am sure you will start to feel the benefit soon, although very often things do have to get worse before they get better that just the nature of quitting drugs. Anyway hang in there the cravings are all part of the process, keep reading other peoples stories if it helps, I am sure you can do it.

Take care, thanks for posting and please keep us posted on how it is going.

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hey this is my third night of giving up and oh my god... i went to bed at 2:50 and layed there all night till 5:50 so i went and made myself busy for the rest of the time... i thought why the hell lay here when i aint even the slightest tired when i can go amuse myself... for the whole 3 hours i lay there tossing and turning... im not sure if i'll ever get off cannabis... its like if your a person that gets addicted to stuff like tht soo bad(like me) your soooo badly screwed lol not joking... i feel like a herion addict with no herion... and ive always said to myself that cannabis is as far as i'll go... n then i thought why the hell am i spending £600 a month on that crap when that is enough for me to get insured on a subaru impretza lol... oh n its mega hard for me to quit because my sister and her bf still smoke it... n they sleep in the room next to me n smoke one b4 they sleep... but i cnt smell it... its just the fact that i know its there and im in my room and im craving for it soo bad... I have college on thursday and i cnt not sleep the night b4 i go... dou think the doctors will understand me and my motivation and subscribe me sleeping tablets for the first couple of weeks and then slowly take me off of them maybe... :S i am soo glad im not on my own doing this... when i think to myself screw quitting i just think of all the others that are craving for a spliff and think oh my it aint just me... so i do get a lil inspired from reading these email things lol... ive owed people soo much money due to bud... ive spent at least £30000 in the 5 years ive smoked it... i figured this out when i was working and then thought oh shit thats enuf for a brand new subaru impreza - (dream car by the way) lol (want to b a rally driver) ive owed my dad £400 near christmas and for my present... he just let me off... but then again all i used to do is get in from work... hibernate in my room with a £20 bag n get high... but thats got into a horrible routine and i just want out of it and at times i have thought oh my is it even possible and will the craving's go... when i think about a spliff it makes my body tingle inside... makes me feel incomplete... i just want to know if that feeling will ever go.

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By the way... every joint i smoked (4-5) daily were sooo strong i used to put more weed in than tobacco and i could even fit the top of my index finger in the top of the spliff... has anybody else smoked heavily like this for years on end and feel they can't put a stop to the routine... i feel atm like im mr incredible... every time i used to smoke a fag... i wished it were weed. Every time i still smoke a fag i still wish it tasted like a joint but had no effects whatso eva (i cnt even remember what i did yesterday... and its been like tht for years) and when i drive at night... i think everyone's headlights are police... trying to get me i know its bad n really need specialist help with sleeping... i layed there wide awake for 3 hours... in the dark... is tht possible?? please reply everyone... matt...

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By the way... every joint i smoked (4-5) daily were sooo strong i used to put more weed in than tobacco and i could even fit the top of my index finger in the top of the spliff... has anybody else smoked heavily like this for years on end and feel they can't put a stop to the routine... i feel atm like im mr incredible... every time i used to smoke a fag... i wished it were weed. Every time i still smoke a fag i still wish it tasted like a joint but had no effects whatso eva (i cnt even remember what i did yesterday... and its been like tht for years) and when i drive at night... i think everyone's headlights are police... trying to get me i know its bad n really need specialist help with sleeping... i layed there wide awake for 3 hours... in the dark... is tht possible?? please reply everyone... matt...

oh yeah, i hate people who make spliffs that taste of tobacco.. i used to put a little bit of tobacco in just to help it smoke better

got to the point where i could smoke and smoke and smoke big spliffs and it would just keep me on one level, i knew it was pointless but was addicted

the sleep thing does get better, i've layed in bed from midnight to 5-6am in the past... the key is not to get stressed about it... in the first week without i would lay in the dark in bed with my ipod on and listen to some music that i found relaxing..

in my experience i found that if you get up early do loads of walking and/or some running then it will help u sleep at night


like i posted before, think of all the things i could spends £20 a day on.... my only problem is i have no friends left to go to these new place with!

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Just wanted to say well done to you Mat.. i think you sound like an awsomely mature guy for quitting now! Im stuck with a guy whos 34 and has been smoking since he was 14. He wont quit and is in danger of losing everything if hes not careful. Hope your sticking at it.. hope its getting easier day by day. Stay strong!