hi, i have a problem with weed as does my boyfriend. when i met him he had been smoking 8 years before on and off. When we got toghether i knew nothing about weed but noticed his mates smoked. i hated it at 1st and would not like to be in the same room when they did.
soon after i started smoking. 2 years on and we are smoking on a daily basis, spending over 500 a month on it, its something we have always done together, they say you should avoid situations when you smoked but in our situation it would be difficult. we avoid social situations to be on our own in our flat watching telly shaing a spliff. i really want to give up and so does my boyfriend, we have wasted so much money on it and sacraficed alot but its got to stop.
i have bad sleeping problems when i smoke and when i dont. it takes my sooo long to get to sleep i stay awake thinking about pointless things, my mind is never free from thought. i seem to think if i smoke loads before bed ill fall asleep quicker, it used to be like that but ive smoked it for 2 years everyday i feel normal when im stoned.
we are cutting down to a couple a day from tomorrow, we have a holiday booked for januray and it looks like were going to have no money to spend at this rate if we carry on smoking up our hard earned money.
i want to do so many things with my life i feel like ive got no where while ive been stoned. i want to make something of my life as does my partner, i just feel like im going to have a empty feeling inside. wish id never touched the stuff, i was a confident girl before. any comments would more than welcome this is gonna be hard, but with your support im sure we will get through the other side. thanks alot x