Im on a good way

[sensymila]

Hi, My name is George and Im from Poland

I'd like to share my story with you.
Iam 18, when I first time smoked weed I was 15. First 1.5 years of smoking were the best years in my life. Before I smoked, I hadn't had an interesting life. At that time, I spent many hours a day training chess. I was the best player in my area twice. My father went to England I lacked sth in my life. I wanted to try marihuana. I met new friends and started to smoke. I didnt play chess any more. Everytime I went sleep I was telling myself "Im so happy in my life". I even changed the e-mail password from "ihatemylife" to "ilovemyself". After a year I moved to England with my parents, but it didnt change anything. I found new friends, who I smoked with, but it wasnt like with my Polish friends. At the age of 17. I decided to go back to Poland and live with my Parents. My parents agreed, coz I joined to a very good school in Poland. Now Im during the second year of this school, and Im very proud of it. First year I all smoked, and I dont remember anything from maths and phisics, but these subjects are the most important for me. In a 1.5 year time I have got the most important exam of my life. I need to prepare myself to pass it. Im the worst at maths/phisics in my class. I want to change it and that is one of many factors why I want to quit smoking. I'd like to meet a love of my life and lead a normal life, with no drugs. Now is the 3rd day I dont smoke. Im proud of myself because I refused to smoke twice yesterday. Im on a good way to quit pot, and I need somebody who will support me in this fight. Im trying to spend my time learning maths and going out with people who doesnt smoke. Good luck to every1

[BFB]

Hi sensymila welcome to the forum.

Well done on your third day without smoking, I know the first few days feel like a very big step, they are and can sometimes be the hardest. I think your studies will really see the benefit of you quitting, I know some may cope without it been too much of a problem but for many smoking dope can have a significant effect, there’s nothing like been clean and sober and having a clear head when it comes to focusing on your studies.

Anyway it’s still early days but it sounds like you are doing well, so keep up the good work, thanks for posting, take care and please keep us posted on how it goes.

[sensymila]

Its 5th day without pot today. I feel good and sleep good. I dont sleep much (about 6 hours) but I get up quite rested. Perhaps every bad withdrawal symptoms are ahead of me. I have no motivation to learn at the moment... Its even worse than when I smoked. Why is it like that? Im happy that I matured to decision to quit pot. I dont meet my smoker's friends. I'm afraid that they could encourage me to hit from the bong or sth. In spite of this I still dont want to smoke(!) Its the longest break I have had for 2 years.

[sensymila]

After 18 days without pot I failed Yesterday I smoked weed. I was ill and friends has visited me. They told me "pot is a medicine, it will help you"
I believed in it and smoked a join with them. It was fun, but I expected sth else after 18 days without smoking. I expected to laugh at everything like it was when I started. I regret I did it. Now I know it's not worth to do it. I still want to stay clean and do sth with UNmotivation for learning.

Thanks for supporting me. Reading this forum really helped me to survive these 18 days.

[BFB]

Never mind sensymila we all have our wobbles, at least you are back on the wagon now, stick with it mate.

Take care

[sensymila]

Sorry for not posting for so long. I stayed clean about a month, and smoked just twice in 2 months. I enjoyed that period of time. I found a girlfriend and everything was OK. During the Christmas break I was in England and I started smoking again and it lasts until now. Few days ago I quit on high with my girlfriend ( dont know why ). Now Im again that old Bart, who is pissing on everything. I lost my girl who was supporting me for all the time. Now I would like to try to quit this shit again, but my motivation is not like it was. Lets see what will happen. Keep your fingers crossed one more time. Thanks

[Tonka]

sinsemilla:

Its not about fingers crossed or luck, man. we all send good vibes but in the end is your will power... you can be unmotivated but if you really make up your mind to quit and do all that is in your power you might succeed. Learn from your past mistakes... I think a big mistake was smoking twice in two months... that weekend your will power and when you went to london you were not strong enough to say no! You felt bad for falling and you transmitted that to your GF... (these are all guesses).. so no you are negative and probably a little depressed. So just stop as fast as possible... read stuff motivate yourself with daily meditation... work on your mind.. talk to your exgirl friend.. and stay strong!

[BFB]

Hi again sensymila, welcome back. Sorry to hear about your setback, never mind what’s done is done, you can always start again, better luck this time.

Take care and please keep us posted.