Hi id like to start by saying how great it is to have found this website. I am a recovering alcoholic, i got help in AA and kicked my addiction to alcohol and have now been sober over 10 years, however within recent years i have started to smoke more and more weed.
I have started to do some of the things mentioned in the various posts on here, like writing down whats going in with me when i smoke, and when i dont smoke.
Ive found its like a clever trick of my mind. When ive not smoked in say 2 days and i get some money, my mind is straight to 'lets get some weed', but after smoking it, i cant work out why i wanted to get it so bad. It makes me feel deflated, anxious and depressed about my life, and i write it all down. I have thrown away half the deals ive bought recently as i still fall into the trap of going and buying it, only to realise that i dont really need it, and that all it does is make me feel like shit.
But again inevitably the thought of smoking weed becomes appealing to me again, lol its madness.
I think i am making some headway now though thanks to writing down how i feel on and off weed, its starting to help me see through the lie, i have even made short audio recordings that i play to myslef, telling myself how i can enjoy my life far better without weed, and that i do not need it, and that when i think i do its a trick.
I'm starting again today, i have registered with this website now and hope to make some friends who are also in recovery from canabis addiction. Peace to all .