Hey guys . Its my second day and i havent slept for these past few days. For example. I sleep three hours and then i wake with this feeling of anxiety and depression. Hopefully its from detoxong. Did anyone feel this when quitting.? I almost blew it today though. I woke up after the three hours of sleep. Around 12am and called a friend to go smoke. Luckily he said no. That alone is scary to me. How because of my anxiety and depressive feelings i could just give into my impulses. What is something to help me through the tough shit that we need to crawl through. You guys know wat i mean, waking up in the middle of the night and having that feeling of anxiety and racing thoughts mixed with down and depressive state. I know that its because of the weed. But man it gets tough. Are any of you guys experiencing these feelings also?
And also something else i want to talk about. Sometimes i feel as if my brain is trying to make it seem okay and trick me into thinking that smoking once a week is ok. And that i would be able to maintain this once a week use for good. I do have to be very careful because addiction runs in the family. My mom is an alcoholic and looking at that is most of the time stressful for me. Would using once a week be a big mistake and just start a vicious cycle? Or would it be a way to keep my use casual and under control? To be honest if i could maintain use for once a week that in itself would be a big deal. This is the tricky part, to not let it get out of control and have it be everyday use. That would be the ultimate test of will and responsibilty for me.
Ive also read that marijuana is not always the cause of the underlying problem of depressive feelings and i feel like if i do wat i need to ,to get ahead in life that naturally would alleviate this state of mind. One thing is for sure i plan on quitting drinking for good. I mean im no alcoholic but like i said addiction especially with alcohol is in the blood and that is just something that i need to totally stay away from!
So guys, let me know wat you guys think and i would appreciate the insight on your behalf. Again stay strong and remember follow your dreams cause working a dead end job for the rest of your life isnt gonna alleviate anything and only make your state of mind worse. Work that 9 to 5 now but make sure that this dead end job that youre working now is to put you in the position to live life with passion and do wat you love to do for a living. Peace out everybody and please reply!!!!